And I have already dried up. I didn’t quit or stop breastfeeding, breastfeeding stopped me. I’m sure the thought of you being nursed won’t matter to you until/if you ever decide to have a baby and nurse. The idea just is not normal until your there, or that is exactly how it was for me. For about a week you would latch on and pull off immediately and do that for 30minutes until I just gave you a bottle that you latch onto perfectly. I think that was your way of saying give me something with some milk mama! And after everytime you’d do that I would try to hand express milk out and I would get nothing. Also the last 3 times I had used my pump, I got nothing. That still didn’t stop me. I wasn’t sure if those we signs of being dry so I kept nursing you when I know your not starving and when I know you have the patience to work for 30mins for 1 ounce when you require 5 now. I don’t care how bad I want to be successful at nursing, I’m not going let you go hungry. So anyways I still didn’t stop, it comforted you. And then one day you wouldn’t latch on at all the whole day after that whole 7 (or prob more) days that you wouldn’t nurse either so I stopped. I stopped dragging out something that wasn’t working. And my boobs didn’t swell of gorge or anything like that and usually women who make some milk swell, sometimes even get fever in just the breast or even the entire body! I also hadn’t felt a let down in a long time so it was time and it’s been 2 weeks and she’s been eating and sleeping and gaining fine. I know breast milk is better. I know breast milk is better. I know breast milk is better. Dig the knife in as deep as you can while your in the area. But I don’t have any to give. Maybe it was her inability to latch that stunted us, maybe it was my lack of support, late milk production and formula brought to my doorstep, maybe it was my lack of knowledge, lack of deferments too to pump after every feeding, lack of commitment to pump through the night or nurse before or after every single suppliment. Maybe it was my fault or maybe it was my natural body. Breast milk is best, it’s natural. But what if it does not come natural. What if your adding fennel seeds to your diet, drinking lactation teas, taking milk thistle. These are natural ingredients yes but adding anything to your body is NOT YOUR NATURAL BODY. It’s your natural body supplemented with natural ingredients. Herbs are natural. Having to take them is not. My idea of natural is something that comes on its own. Not something that has to be forced. And maybe if there ever is a next child, or by the time you have one lactation specialists will be more available. But it wasn’t for me this time, and someone like me with my genetics, my characteristics that fir Hypoplasia to the T, needs a lactation specialist to help. People like me have to work for milk. Most women do not. You can’t go with the flow of there is none.. So about a week and a half or two weeks ago you stopped breast feeding at 2 and 1/2 months. I loved nursing. I wish I could have done better for you but your healthy and happy and full all of the time!